Friday, July 9, 2021

The End of a Chapter


 I sit here watching, waiting for her next breath. She sleeps more, her breathing slows, but there are still those moments of clarity where she can hold conversations and enjoy a good tennis match on the television. 


But, these activities don’t last as long now, nor happen as often as before. She eats less, sleeps more, and every routine evolution of the day takes much longer than before. Talking wears her out; listening and thinking are getting tougher too. Those thoughts are getting disjointed, sentences started but never finished… concentration wanes, and she can’t remember what she was doing - if she finished or hasn’t started. Days run together, and time has less meaning now. Even realizing if it is day or night can sometimes be a challenge. 


I sit here watching, waiting for her next words, listening to the oxygen concentrator pump out the four liters she needs to fuel her body. But I know this isn’t enough, that her body isn’t processing it as well; looking at the dark fingers and hands, cold to the touch even when it is warm in her room, her toes not any better in color or temperature. 


She talks about “Pa” who finished dinner one night, went to sit in his favorite rocking chair on the front porch, and fell asleep quietly, never to wake up again. Quickly, quietly, without the degradation and pain that comes with a slower passing. I believe this is what she wants, yet she still clings to another hour, another day of life.


Many others at this stage don’t last long - her visiting nurse said it is often a sign of the final few weeks. But she also believes Mom is strong and stubborn still, and will last for longer. But how much?


While I hope she will last longer, I don’t want to see her in pain, lose her dignity and self esteem. She will probably last more than the two weeks the nurse said is common for this stage, but it is almost certain she will not see her next birthday in December.


I am glad I get this time with her, to care for her as she has for me in the past. Sharing moments with her, watching tennis or the races, baseball and hockey, or just talking about family we miss and places we’ve seen. It is peaceful and enjoyable to remember those activities we shared, and share memories of those we did not have together.



The end came quicker than expected, but blessedly so. Her decline accelerated, and in a matter of days she went from vibrant and stubborn to vacant and subdued. It was about a week, and she went quietly, curled up with her Bear, looking as if she was peacefully asleep. A whispered, “I Love you, mom,” and a kiss on her forehead as the tears flowed down my cheeks, then the calls to the funeral home and family. We gathered to share our stories and memories, to say goodbye to our matriarch with favored foods and music. 


Margaret Maconaghy Fegely came into this world the only child of a Methodist minister, and while she left this world without the material wealth which so many claim makes one rich, she had the limitless joy and love from family and friends, that priceless asset of immeasurable value. Mom now knows a pain-free peace, and lives eternally in our hearts.

Sunday, February 7, 2021

2021 - The Year of Starting Over

Sometimes it still feels like March 2020, when the world basically came to a standstill. COVID-19 changed everything; normal business in an office and on location became all too often a homebound virtual endeavor, making Zoom a common connectivity choice for business, education, and personal connectivity. Virtual showroom tours, public meetings, seminars, and other live events now take on the livestreaming world, and production companies have had to adjust their services to give the people what they need. From mitzvahs, funerals, and weddings, to corporate and industry meetings, companies like KW3HD Productions are finding a niche away from pre-recorded productions and into the live world more than ever.

For 2021, as we start to recover from "The Year That Wasn't" it is expected more livestream and mixed-stream events will take place. Even as things begin to open up, many are finding the effectiveness of livestreaming their events to share with others who would otherwise not be able to attend. For KW3HD Productions, along with many of our partners and associates, the goal is to continue to provide these live services for the community - giving the hyperlocal hyperconnectivity through Facebook Live, YouTube, and even Zoom.

Whether it's a small family affair, or an industry conference, look for our services to provide you the best production at any level. Contact KW3HD Productions for a free consultation and recommendations to start your next event.

Monday, September 14, 2020

Sound Guy hang out

My friend and audiophile Rob France works the audio systems for a few venues, and has created videos to discuss different aspects of setting up for a live music event. These short videos have great information for a novice or experienced sound engineer to learn and/or review when setting up your own systems. Check them all out and watch for more!

Sound Guy Hang Out 

The End of a Chapter

  I sit here watching, waiting for her next breath. She sleeps more, her breathing slows, but there are still those moments of clarity where...